I always knew that God had called me to get married young (like, 18 years old young). But as a little girl, the God-given dream placed on my heart of getting married young seemed almost fairy-tale like. However, when God’s plans came to pass and I actually ended up getting engaged and then married at the age of 18, things sure felt different. Most people my age are still trying to choose what college they want to go to, and here I was choosing the man that I will spend the rest of my life with. What??
I couldn’t cook. I’d never done my own taxes. I still procrastinated by watching Pretty Little Liars on Netflix when I should be doing my homework. I still don’t even have my license yet (…but that’s a story for another time).
To say I wasn’t ready to be a wife by earthly standards is an understatement. I didn’t even know how to take care of myself all by myself, much less care for another person as well.
I wasn’t ready to be a wife. And I’m so thankful for that.
Tristan and I didn’t read a ton of pre-marriage books or do much pre-marriage counseling. I didn’t have months to “learn” how to be a good wife before we got married. Instead, we just took a big gigantic jump of faith into this whole thing called marriage.
It hasn’t been easy, but it’s been so good.
In order for my marriage to thrive, I must be so beautifully dependent on my First Love. The minute pride springs up I stumble, and I must cling even tighter to the Spirit. And when I walk in the Spirit, He guides me every step of the way and gives me all the knowledge, grace, and wisdom that I need in each and every moment.
I love that I serve a God who equips the unequipped and qualifies the unqualified. On my own I am so completely unqualified to be a wife, but with God I am more than qualified. My lack of earthly qualifications bear no weight in light of the heavenly qualifications that God has eternally equipped me with.
~But God chose what is foolish in the world to shame the wise; God chose what is weak in the world to shame the strong; God chose what is low and despised in the world, even things that are not, to bring to nothing things that are, so that no human being might boast in the presence of God. And because of him you are in Christ Jesus, who became to us wisdom from God, righteousness and sanctification and redemption,so that, as it is written, “Let the one who boasts, boast in the Lord.”~ (1st Corinthians 1:27-21)